Stuck in a rut?

You only have one life. I have learnt recently that you need to
stop moaning and complaining about how depressed or alone you are. All it does is keep you in that same old rut. I'm alone with no boyfriend, no one to love me in that department and I've learnt to live with it and focus on my friends that I've had to actually go and GET and FIND most of the time. You are never too old to change your life and its direction.
Go back to study, go to social events to meet friends, searching for "the one" drove me crazy for years and made me miserable as hell. I'd often punish myself over not having someone, too. I don't do this anymore. I dedicate my life to making myself happy and others around me happy and if it happens it happens. First and foremost you have to learn how to be happy and let go of any past and previous hatred you may have.
Forgive those who slated you or abused you in some cases, let their name be but a memory. You only have yourself at the end of the day so it is up to you to help yourself. If you have depression, you must just decide to let go. Let go of all the pain. Does it really matter anyway? Some people don't even have limbs and they raced in the Paralympics ;-) it is all in your mind and how you perceive a situation. For me, I'm aware that drinking and partying too much re-ignites my bipolar and personality disorder so it's up to ME to step back, notice when it's going over board and become
Tee total for a month or
So... Which is what I'm doing at the moment. Week and a half so far. Be responsible , take your medication which works for you and realise that you can do anything. It's all in the mind.
This is why I want to become a psychiatrist as well as a well known singer.. Because
I've been there and understand how hard life can be.
If you are given a bad hand in life or a situation... Take a moment to reflect.. How can it get better? Maybe you're associating with the wrong crowd and they're doing you no good.. Perhaps you're in a relationship which depresses you because he/she always is criticising you. There is always a way out. A way for a more balanced healthier state of mind. I relapsed in self harming 10 days ago. Why? Because things got on top of me and I was pressurising myself too much and hanging with some bad people these past few weeks. So what have I done... ? I've been depressed and hardly come out of my room all week and allowed myself a break which is fine of course but now it's time to remember..: just relax, take it easy, do what you love to do, you can do it. Smile and let go of anger and hatred.
Let go of stress and just relax and move forward. I write this because I see so much anger on face book at the moment from a lot of people and a lot of people complaining about how shit their life is... Mine has been HELL.... But has it really? Ill leave you with that.
EMJ :-)